What amazes me—in a good way—is how patient everyone is being with me.
A friend told me once that he was in the "perfect place in the imperfect world we live in". The words struck a chord. Most of my friends have found little spots of perfection in this ever-changing world, but a few of us are still searching; I'm definitely one of those few.
But what hit me today was that "perfection" is often very close to us; we just don't see it. It's in our passions, our work ... and those who let us be who we are; those who support us and stand behind our strange ways and, simply, do not judge.
It's a mad, mad world out there; maybe that's why I consider such folk to be my personal pockets of sanity. They're the ones who're just there when I need them to be; sometimes on the periphery of my life, sometimes right next to me, but always keeping me centered, focused on what I need to do, when I need to do it.
Writing is a consuming passion. It's easy to overlook relationships, and sleep, and even meals! Keeping in touch or taking the time to show that I appreciate a kind word or engaging blog post can become difficult when I want to get the scenes whirling in my head down on paper as soon as I can. More often than not, I find myself locking those I care for out of my world, confident that they'd always be there—available for me to admire or draw inspiration from or simply hang out with—whenever I surface from my work.
Which means I'm guilty of something pretty awful: neglect!
It's for this reason that I decided to pen down my thoughts today:
I'd like friends and family to know how much I miss my time with them whenever I'm stuck in the middle of revisions/writing.
I'd like them to know how much I appreciate them being so patient with me whenever I turn from a sweet and patient creature into a right bear with a sore tooth at the least provocation ... a shapeshift that has been happening more often than I thought possible lately!:)
Above all, I'd like to send all my loved ones out there a very big Thank You:)
The fact is, I really don't know what I'd do without you:) You are my pockets of sanity in an often chaotic world. I truly hope you will overlook my many moody days, remember more strongly my sunny ones, and not forget me whenever I fly high in worlds more appropriately seen only in the imagination.
I'll be back very soon, no doubt all the better from having visited Wonderland and surviving the trip yet again ... but only thanks to you:)